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Loving you was like seeing absent color,
the unforgiving grays of a poet's December,
waking from a nightmare to a sky devoid of
stars and the moon sunk in the ocean.

The moment I laid eyes on you was the epoch
of my detachment…the collapse of all serenity.

You told me that your parents were dead and buried-
But sometimes they called your name from the wine cellar.
I begged you to haunt me when the lights were off;
"Ghosts won't bother other ghosts." I said

You went to the other side of the room and stared
at a fly dying on the  windowsill.  When the creature finally
stopped moving, you looked at me with empty eyes and said;
"They only talk to me during the day. Can't you hear them moaning?"

It was then that I knew you were something I could not save.

In our shower scene, I patiently waited for you behind the
curtain. I chose not to feel your blade slide under
my ribs, over and over again.

I knew it wasn't just blood that covered the ceramic floor.
It wasn't just blood that stained your shaking hands.  
It wasn't just blood that circled endlessly down the drain.
What flowed from those wounds was my only release from
your sanitarium…an offering  to the versicolor gods.

And when I replay your psychosis in my head,
that crimson knife is the only thing with color.
I took some inspiration from Psycho, which we are watching in one of my classes. The title is a quote from my prof. He said it in such a blunt, matter of fact way that I needed to use it. Such a comically simple way to describe a psychotic killer. Anyways I hope you like the poem because I kind of do. feel free to comment.
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darkallegiance666 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
I just reread this poem again and man, is it good or is it good!!! It's brilliant. I'm missing your non-sentimentality & acidity/cynicism that is often touched with a hint of bitter nostalgia & wistful hope (sounds kind of pretentiously critiquey & wordy, but I mean it). I really hope that you start either publishing or uploading poetry regularly again.
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Anovoca Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013   Writer
Featured: fav.me/d6ml9mj :la:
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Norman-Bates12 Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013
THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ME!! TAKE THAT BACK!! ((Lol hai))
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2013
When I saw the title I was like, "You don't say." But then I read the poem and was stunned. Wow, just wow.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2013  Professional Writer
Thank you very much :)
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2013
You're very welcome. :D
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Sinnomangirl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I like this a lot, the visuals are terrifying. I have a fear of closed shower curtains though that may have made this more frightening.
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randomlyinspired-21 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student Writer
I had this scary shiver down my spine-but despite that this poem's lovely!

Loving you was like seeing absent color,
the unforgiving grays of a poet's December,
waking from a nightmare to a sky devoid of
stars and the moon sunk in the ocean.
(This has a teeny tiny bit of a rhyme to it, probably because I read it too fast, but that's one of the reasons why I like it.)

The first stanza really drew me in, and the suspense came with each passing stanza-like a horror movie with a serial killer after taking a shower and removing the curtain.

:love: this piece!
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You're wonderful work has been featured in my journal: [link] :heart:
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neuroticmnemonic Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012   Writer
What an awesome homage. Congrats on the DLD.
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darkallegiance666 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012
An interesting fact - people remember seeing the blood in red as it swirls down the drain, even though the movie was in b & w, according to Stephen King. :D You've touched on this in your poem.

A lovely tribute to Robert Bloch, in a way. He could write some marvellous stories.

I like this poem.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012  Professional Writer
another interesting fact- They used chocolate syrup for the blood in Psycho. (Ok maybe not that interesting) Anyways thank you for the comment. :)
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darkallegiance666 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012
That is interesting & something that I don't think that I knew, so thanks!! :)
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rlkirkland Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
OK, good read and a DLD...
A tidy package. :)
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you :)
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Keep writing and keep creating.
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iamPoetry Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Nice, very nice.
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012   Writer
I like that everything is detached. Often times with subjects like these, you have huge emotional reactions--but with this, you don't. Reading the other comments and your responses to them, I see that this was your intent. You've done that perfectly. I feel nothing (other than finding the words beautiful). And it's terrifying.
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Lacewinged-Beauty Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012   Writer

I felt as emotionless and detached as the narrator - I wasn't surprised when the knife was smeared with red.

I adore the title. Very fitting, I think.
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LancelotPrice Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012
hm... critique... Maybe it's just because I'm not fully awake yet, but this one seems academic and detached, as though it were an exercise in a creative writing class. I can't immerse myself in it or feel anything real or emotional. There's a conscious artificiality about it, as I see it, a calculated engineering process. But as I said, I'm not really awake yet. I have seen 'Psycho', but not recently. There was nothing terribly wrong with Norman, certainly nothing that a little self-realisation wouldn't cure. :)

My apologies for not liking this one, John, I usually do like your work.

Lance
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
I can't honestly say that I'm even offended. I should thank you for pointing out that I completed the effect I was attempting to make. (even though you didn't like it) The narrator doesn't truly feel anything real or emotional either, besides an awareness that something isn't right. You mention the word detached which appears in the line "The moment I laid eyes you was the epoch of my detachment." This is very much the purpose of the poem in a way. The piece is colorless. The narrator sees in black and white while with the woman as a means to preserve his own sanity and only starts to feel again when their connection is severed.

This one just didn't set well with you and that's ok. But hopefully you'll be fully awake the next time you read one of my pieces. ;)
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LancelotPrice Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012
It usually helps. Though not always. :D
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yourroyalshortness Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so cool! I automatically thought of psycho when reading it! You are a really good poet- definitely one of my favourites
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you so much. I'm glad you like the piece :)
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yourroyalshortness Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Welcome- I watched the film in my english lesson and liked it then and this poem has actually inspired me to watch it again :D
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reflectionsinwater Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Although the poem describes one single mood, it never manages to get repetitive and monotonous. The contrast of colour, sentence structure, and tone between the first half and the second half of the poem is incredibly well done. The emotion of the poem, fear, pain but how it mixes with passion, love and lust is wonderful. A perfect way to describe such a complex series of emotions.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you! :)
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Svitavotara Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012
Wonderful work!
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you!
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TheDarkenedBride Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
my favourite part is the first stanza :nod:
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ElegantFaith Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012   Writer
Wow. This is so fantastic. Truly beautiful words. :)
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you very much. I'm glad you think so. :)
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Lightning-Powered Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Professional General Artist
I kind of missed it here. I mean I love the title but I didn't understand what emotion I was feeling as I read the verses... if that makes any sense? lol
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Did you not fully understand what emotion this made you feel or did you not understand the emotion this was supposed to make you feel?
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Lightning-Powered Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional General Artist
The latter.
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RUNNrabbitRUNN Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012
i am jealous of your writing here. it really is superb.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you :)
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Ohmygoodness I'm so incredibly smitten with your work. This has to be one of my favorite pieces. I love the way you easily transition from both analyzing your alternate in a scene, and as a whole. You also beautifully slide between metaphor and reality, sanity and psychosis.
I'm so jealous, honestly, of all the various components you always seem to include in your writing. This is so well-developed in its multiple layers. Upon my second read, I realized the fantastic way you tied the ending back to the beginning in the mention of color. I love the symbolism you put on the red-- the only color you remember was the "release", the freedom. The only thing of color is your passion and, ultimately, end.
I love the sense of a savior and a bystander the narrator portrayed. Wow. This really got my mind whirring.
Thank you for such a thought provoking piece.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you so much for saying such kind words. I'm really glad you liked this piece. :)
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
My thoughts are filled with images like this, not just because of horror movies, but when I started watching horror movies they ended up of course being my favourites.

And when I read "versicolor" I could only think of tarantulas.
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
What would you consider your favorite horror movies to be?
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Geeee. That's a list. The Wolfman with Lon Chaney, Nosferatu (the silent film), Dracula with Bela Lugosi, Nightmare on Elmstreet movies (except that newest one, it sucked), Halloween movies (1, 2, 4, 5, and actually liked Rob Zombie's versions), Maximum Overdrive (okay, people say its silly, but that movie scared me as a kid, I mean, the machine fucking CRUNCHED a kid :|)...er, well, I love a lot of 80s slashers, the old scary 40s through 60s movies... Spider Baby! LOVED that one, a tale of insanity! The Tingler, gotta love some Vincent of course! I've got those two 50 sets of movies from Wal-mart that were ten bucks, and I enjoyed watching those movies a lot :)
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
I've been looking for a couple of really good scary movies and it seems the older ones are better then the modern films. The remake of friday the 13th was so lame that it was kinda sad. I did like Rob Zombie's first Halloween but the second just didn't do it for me. I like to be scared by movies but it's getting more difficult.
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sure we're scared by different things. But the Boogeyman movies, (remake and the other two) had scary elements for me. Mainly it was the first and second one though, the third was a bit more gorish than scary. But yeah, I have a total fear of "under the bed" so much so, I have no under the bed. Same for closets, I watched an older one called Cameron's Closet that spooked me as well because of my fear.
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ArachnoWolf Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Actually, I may be wrong on Boogeyman 2 and 3, I'll have to look again :P
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jofflin Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Nice imagery and good inspiration!
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RussianTim Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2012  Professional Writer
Thanks :)
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